I just want to have someone to rant to and a shoulder. It’s been a long week and longer 3 months of being positive and supportive to others. Now of all times it comes to a head and dumps on me at once, you’d think karma would have a better sense of humor.
However I just said goodbye to the first person who would be there for me and the one I supposed would be there shortly after I saw walking at me with her next conquest & was not in a state to help. All in the space of 2 minutes.
Now my cat is walking away from me and I don’t think I have felt this empty in quite some time quite some time indeed. Probably the saddest, of only sad, part of this short note is I ain’t even drunk, and as much as I want to cry have held it back so long nothing is coming out.
Tonight is a shit night and fuck I need to get my ducks in order.
And so now I write this into the ether, because I have no one else at hand, the rest are packing, drinking, fornicating or off in far off lands doing what they do in day light hours. And my cat, well she is prowling as cats do at high moon.